I Didn't Ask for This

About this book

How far will you run across someone else's battlefield before you realize you are destroying your own kingdom?For decades, Kintara Cosby wore the invisible armor of a default protector. From the country porch of Mart, Texas, into the proud uniform of the United States military, her hands only knew how to do one thing: survive the storm. She became the default anchor for a fractured family tree and a broken street circle, operating under the dangerous illusion that if the superhero stopped moving, the entire universe would collapse into the dirt.But an unhealed savior complex carries a lethal cost. In the center of a domestic crucible in Waco, the deadbolts were thrown. Kintara found her home front transformed into a literal war zone-harboring a wanted fugitive, navigating a predatory household violation, and carrying the crushing, silent grief of losing her beloved son, Malachi. Pinned flat against the kitchen tiles of her own sanity, she had to endure the ultimate sting of betrayal from the very people closest to her.She was forced to confront the heaviest question of her life: Am I enough? And if the answer was yes, why was she continuously emptying her reservoir to finance the quicksand of people who treated her royalty like garbage?What You Are Stepping Into: This book is not a polished, safe religious cliché; it is the literal, bleeding record of a woman's raw survival-the first installment in an unfolding series. Written from the trenches of real-time legal, physical, and psychological warfare, this memoir unmasks the primitive agony of a personal Gethsemane and the terrifying beauty of a sovereign leap of faith. Inside these 15 chapters, you will discover: The Trap of the Sleeping Circle: Why the people who depend on your strength will comfortably sleep through your private emergency. The Command to Put the Sword Away: How fighting a spiritual war with street-level anger will only ruin your own harvest. Where the Winds Blow, the Waves Obey: The exact moment on Overflow Road where I permanently buried the superhero armor to let the Holy Spirit guide the current. Standing at the peak of a grueling mountain, I am pulling back the curtain on the true cost of codependency. The past is permanently abandoned in the dirt of Texas, the blueprint for a beautiful legacy has been set, and the slow, step-by-step walk toward the opposite shoreline has finally begun.Your heart and mind are the soil; every word spoken over you doesn't have to be planted. Order your copy of Book One and let's start healing together.